The Insomniac

I’ve been having weird sleeping patterns for the past few months. The thing I’ve noticed about sleep for me is; when I feel like getting some, it’s not the right time. When it’s the right time, I don’t feel like getting some. I guess I’m a nocturnal person. It seems that I do most of my thinking at night, especially after 1am. I spoke to Hakim about my case of insomnia. He told me that according to some motivational speaker, you have to tell yourself, “Shut up”. Then you’ll go to sleep. But is it possible to tell yourself to stop thinking?

Chew on this…do you know how your brain always seems to go against your own will? For example, when working with homework that comes with solutions, whenever you tell yourself not to look at the answer for Question 12, somehow you’ll end up looking at it? Or how about telling yourself not to think about that Mustang GT you saw on the road today? Chances are you’ll be thinking about it even more than if you weren’t trying to inhibit yourself. The bottom line is, we need a distraction.

But that doesn’t resolve my issue about my brain getting a workout in the middle of the night. A distraction merely gives it more coal to burn. Taking sleeping pills is out of the question not only because I’m not a pill-popper, but also because I feel it’s unethical for a person of my age and health to be taking them. I guess the only way for me right now is to wait until I run out of things to think about, or until my brain gets bushed.

Anyway, we lost the soccer match thanks to two early goals. I’m so tempted to do a little write-up on why Malaysians can never excel in sports. But we’ll leave that for another time, shall we?